Are we missing the point?

Life..

What is it to you?

I dont know about you but sometimes I think we are miss the point about what its really about. Sometimes I feel like we get caught up on the shit that just doesn't matter. You know the stuff that we really cant take with us when we kick the bucket. The stuff we carry inside us that holds us back. I know I am guilty about it from time to time but lately I've been asking myself do I live a meaningful life? Have I achieved everything I have said I wanted to do? I have found out that life isn't about being angry about the things we have missed out on. I have come to accept that. To me, life is about accepting the challenges that we are faced with, no matter what they are. I think within the last two years, I'm finally shaping into the person I've always wanted to be and getting there has been interesting to say the least. I know inside my head I struggle with the fact that I have a really hard time not comparing myself to others around me, and I bet you have the same problem as well. I know deep down that I am doing the best I can with what I have been given. I know in my life that things happen just the way they should of. I wasn't supposed to marry the person I was engaged too. I wasnt supposed to receive a job offer from the company I wanted to work for when I was out of a job. Sometimes negative things happen to us in our lives that actually benefit us in a positive way. Imagine that. Think about it for a second, I bet there was something negative that happened to you that you have come to realize that your life would of turned out completely different if had happened the way you wanted to at that time. There are somethings in my life that I have learned to accept and that is things always work out how they are supposed to and everything is going to be okay. It always is isnt it? I wake up every day trying to inspire the world around me. I do it in the way that I write, and the way that I take my photographs. You can tell a lot about sometime by the way they write. They are the thoughts/and emotions that come together to form the words you are looking at right now. I know sometimes I wonder where I get my passion to write because I reread some of the things I've wrote and I question if from time to time, did I really write this? There are billions of people in this world and we all have the ability to create the world we want around us. We attract things in our life that we think about.Sometimes people miss that though and they wonder why they are so angry with how their life has turned out. They go their whole life trying to figure it out. I have a job that takes me to a lot of various places around the country and challenges me emotionally and sometimes physically. I come in contact with a lot of different people. Its amazing how much you can learn about someone just by reading their body language. I have a habit of walking by someone when I am in an airport and asking to myself if they are happy. Its amazing when you can sense someones energy without even saying a word to them. You know, its that vibe you feel about someone when you first meet them. I am beyond blessed and grateful that I have had the opportunity to see some of the things I have seen. It makes me truly appreciate life. Sometimes I forget the true meaning of life though. Honestly, what is the true meaning? Is it the liquor for some people? is it the paycheck you take home every two weeks? is it the person you are with but don't love because you are just "comfortable" with, Is it the the hatred you have inside with yourself? The shit that we are faced with in our own personal lives sometimes can make it hard to wrap our head around. Its the shit that makes you question if there really is a God. I'm not here looking for a handout. I can tell you from my 27.5 years living on this planet that life isnt easy. I've been to some pretty dark places in my life that I never hope to return to but I believe those places have made me the individual I am today. So what type of life do you want to live? Remember to always find the good in someone and hold them to that standard. Challenge them, and inspire them because you may be the person that they need in their life.


In Nomeni Patri Et Fili Spiritus Sancti.

Connectors.

Have you ever met someone in your life and knew instantly something about them was different. They talked to you in a way like they already knew you. You felt like you could tell them anything and never hesitated opening up. You often struggle to pinpoint their type personality because they don't match any personality that you are familiar with but they tend to carry themselves in a way that makes you gravitate towards them. They make you want to be a better person than you are today. They have a welcoming sense to them. They are the ones who are somewhat misunderstood. They know they have a hard time fitting in with the "in crowd" and tend to have a hard time adjusting to what society tells them to do so they are used to doing things by themselves. They have been faced with some type of adverse situation in their life that separates them from the norm. The are the ones that you tell can tell your whole life story to without them judging you in a way that makes you feel less of a person. This type of person prefers smaller more intimate groups. They almost come across as a loner but the more you get to understand this person, they are leaders. They are leaders because they know they are different from the norm. They are used to doing things by themselves. They have a way of empathizing with people who may be struggling because they have found themselves struggling in life as well. This person is around us every day but they are often hard to find because they are typically reserved and dont go out of their way but once you interact with someone like this you know that the game of fate brought you together. These people we interact with dont stay long in our lives though. They stay for just enough time to help us understand who we are. This type of person I am describing is known as a connector. I am a connector. We have an ablity to connect and identify with many different groups of people. We have a unique way of telling you that everything is going to be okay no matter what you may be faced with. We have been faced with adversity in our own personal life along the way that makes us stand out. We know that the spirit of god is in us and around us which is why we have the ability to relate to someone who may be dealing with adversity themselves. The next time you meet someone who may be a little unique take a second and get to know them. They may be the person who is hear to show you who you are.

Rigmarole.

Rigmarole-

1. A lengthy and complicated procedure.

2. A long, rambling story or statement.

I hate you.

I hate how I've let you control me in my life..

I hate how I've let you win.

I feel empty when I am defeated by you.

I wake up every day and I wonder what you'll say to me.

Its a constant battle with you. Like a jump rope. Up down, Up down.
I go months and months without you making youre appearance and then you pop back into my head with a vengeance. You've allowed me to push people away. You helped me ruin a perfectly good relationship. You are the reason why I am still single. I'm afraid to get into another relationship even though I'm begging for someone to come into my life. Often, I hear you tell me that I;m never going to be good enough. Theres no need to try your best. It doesnt matter. I hear you tell me that shes way out of you're league. I hear you tell me that you will never break the shyness.. You've made me who I am. The good, and the bad and the ugly. You are the reason why I get weird looks when I dont speak in groups. I've accepted you in my life. I know that you arent going to go away anytime soon. We all have the voice I hear inside our heads. Some know how to ignore it better than others and some dont. I struggle with you every day.